Today Nick and I got a shout out from one of our Baylor friends, Katie Evans Cox on her blog. She wrote the sweetest/most touching post for Veterans Day. I'd tell you to check it out, but their blog is private so Im just going to cut and paste (Katie - I hope that's okay!)
And now, I have a sorority sister and friend who is fighting her own daily battle as her husband fights in the war in Afghanistan. I am amazed at her courage and blessed by her honesty. Each day as I sign onto my blog to read-up on my Blogger Buddies, I see her blog (Texas Ex-Pats) and I remember... I remember what battle she fights every day. I remember and I pray. Would you pray for her to?
To Katie and to everyone who remembered us today, and who remembers us every day, THANK YOU! I have felt incredible peace (with a few notable exceptions) every day of Nick's deployment. I have not been a basket case, at least most of the time, and I have not moped around with a heavy heart because I know that Nick and I are constantly prayed over by our loved ones, our friends, and even total strangers.
The question of what this peace really means sometimes weighs heavily on me because here's what I am not certain of: I am not certain that everything about this deployment will work out the way that I want it to. When people say things like "Oh, he'll be fine. I pray for him every day," it sometimes upsets me because that's not what prayer does. It does not a guarantee that our desired outcome will come to pass. Our prayers are just our pleas that God's will be done and that we have the grace to deal with it, no matter what happens. To pray for anything else is tempting, but it is also ultimately futile.
That grace is what I've been so blessed with these last five months while Nick's been in Afghanistan. That grace, that peace that truly surpasses all understanding is what sustains me every single day. I am reminded of Natalie Grant's song, "Held." She says "this is...how it feels when the sacred is torn from your life and you survive...that the promise was when everything fell, we'd be held."
I know that there are lots of people who today have said "thank you" to our military men and women and their families. Today, I'd also like to thank all of you who support us with kind words and with your prayers.